Etienne had a choice between a skeleton necklace or our Savior on the cross during a weekend shopping excursion. Without any prompting and with little thought, he chose Jesus. When asked why he made the decision he made, the answer was simple... "because it makes Jesus smile when we choose Him."
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
I don't care for birds rationalizing that anything that can s*** on my head is no friend of mine. However, even I cannot deny the beauty that some fowl encompass. Thankfully, the kids don't share my phobia and as a result, spent close to an hour feeding this lucky peacock lime flavored popcorn during a recent trip to the zoo.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Each night Sophia and Charlotte sneak out of their beds and write up a little note for AJ and me. Most evenings it's a hand-drawn picture with the simple words "I love you," however last night it was a little bit more...
|To fuel any curiosity, when I lifted the paper, there was indeed a giant green booger. The shocked face illustration about sums it up... Those are our girls sweet and sick all at the same time, just like their parents.|
Friday, September 16, 2011
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
I'm fighting myself in a battle that cannot be won easily, but yet I continue to throw punches. I am a fallen sinner given the chance to live again through the death of another, however I've lost sight of my foundation. From a place of vulnerability I admit that life has been difficult over the past months and weeks which seems counterproductive given the fact that we have at long last received referrals for two precious baby boys. In honesty, days have been long, endless in sight, and although it may appear that I have everything managed, my grasp is weak and my will to push on is at times fleeting.
I know that this brawl is worth the agony but I'm feeling worn, bruised by experience and almost ready to collapse. I believe that I've finally reached my limit and at this point everything that has taken place throughout this adoption has culminated, while the influx of it all weighs me down with intense anger, unrelenting exhaustion and pessimistic distress. From the agency that didn't trust to the one who didn't do their part. From the lies we were fed to the funds that were lost and everything in between, I am broken.
Where do I go from here? Do I give up and run away, sink into my own self-consciousness and disappear into the 'problem' or do I withstand the pain? How do I overcome what has been to embrace what will be? I've walked this road before, the angst was greater then and I proved victorious; stronger as a result. I trust that the same path is before me I just have to jump into motion and continue the fight, not for me but for them.
Monday, September 12, 2011
Friday, September 9, 2011
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Charlotte has officially begun her school career and literally could not be more excited. She picked out her own clothes (a flowing princess dress), requested her nails to be painted (a sparkly shade of pink) and asked for a rhinestone encrusted Mickey Mouse clip to be placed in her hair. This girl knows what she wants and what she wants is more school. With her backpack and lunch bag she trotted into class and almost didn't notice our less than stealth like departure. To summarize, our baby girl is growing up, exploring her 'independence' and as her parents we couldn't be more proud of the beautiful little lady she is becoming.
Side note: We received our second referral today... Another little baby boy who was born just days after we received our referral for Laurent back in July. He is beyond words adorable and we are in a state of disbelief and thanks as we finally know who our TWO little men are. More to come later when time becomes more of a luxury and less of a race.
Monday, September 5, 2011
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Etienne is a first grader, Sophia is now in second grade and I'm 33 years old. The first day of school is always bittersweet for this mommy as I let go of 24/7 contact with my littles, entrusting them in the hands of another, and age a year older. With that said, the kids LOVED school and my day was perfectly spent with my man and Miss Charlotte ending with a surprise birthday dinner with friends and family at one of my favorite restaurants.
Life is complex, neither calm nor serene, but a blessing beyond comprehension. To top it all off it's just been confirmed that we are going to officially be adopting two little guys from Ethiopia. Our sweet Laurent and another tiny one waiting, whose name is yet to be determined. The first day of school may be bittersweet but an event that is inevitably going to be a part of my life for many years to come (Insert smile here)!