Saturday, April 16, 2011

It Doesn't Make Sense

As I lay in bed I prayed not for what I wanted to happen (our referral) but rather to trust and not feel, for His will to be my desires and for peace in whatever may come. To make a long story very short, after a lengthy and at moments intense phone conversation with our adoption agency yesterday, we ended the call in tears. The news was difficult to hear and not what we wanted to happen. No news, no referral, no predictable end in sight. My heart ached.

An enormous outreach of support flooded us as we shared our hurt with fellow adoptive friends and our family. I am overwhelmed by the love and encouragement we have been blessed with and realize that despite the pain of waiting, friendships have been formed and strengthened beyond comprehension - For this I am eternally thankful. Bottom line, AJ and I know that we are called to adopt twins, we trust that the path we are on was not placed by us and we completely acknowledge the fact that the outcome is beyond our control (this admission coming from a struggling control addict).  We will continue the wait and pray for patience to encompass us all the while hoping for a joyful ending where the twins are wrapped in our arms forever. 

So now, let me share with you some interesting news that AJ and I are still attempting to wrap our minds around. Last summer I landed here - Forget Me Not Children's Home. FMN is the first long term foster home program in Monrovia Liberia (West Africa) to specifically take in the abandoned 'special needs' child and as it so happens it is also 'based' out of Wisconsin. When I first visited the site I was instantly taken especially by the story of a little girl named Patience who passed away before she was able to come to the states with her adoptive family. Fast forward to this past week Thursday, I received an email forward from a friend who instantly thought of me as she read through it's context...

I am not about to begin to attempt to decipher what God is doing, but we do have the means to support these little ones and enough love to cloak them. I am brought to this verse from the book of James: "What good is it, my brothers and sisters, if someone claims to have faith but does not have works? Can this kind of faith save him? If a brother or sister is poorly clothed and lacks daily food, and one of you says to them, 'Go in peace, keep warm and eat well,' but you do not give them what the body needs, what good is it? So also faith, if it does not have works, is dead being by itself." John 2:14-17 

I spoke to Donna (also from Wisconsin) from Global Orphan Outreach regarding the twins and their current situation last night. After an informative conversation she said that we should know more this coming Tuesday in reference to our ability to help these twins. The goal of our support as stated by Donna would be to sponsor them today with the hopes of adopting them later. We are cautious but faithful, especially since Liberia is currently closed to international adoptions aside from special needs cases. AJ and I spent the evening in prayer and discussion and although this doesn't make sense on the surface we believe that this has circled around to us for a reason beyond our understanding. Today we know that these little ones NEED someone to provide for them, we know that they are living in a country where the infant mortality rate is devastatingly high and we know that we are commanded to care for the orphans. We will progress, praying for God's will be done while open to whatever He has in store for our family... even if that means two sets of twins at some point.
Baby girl on the left and baby boy on the right



16 comments:

  1. OH my goodness Gina. The scripture that came to me as I read this is

    Isaiah 30:21
    Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.”

    Praying peace, patience and contentment
    love you guys

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  2. You just never know what God is weaving together. Keeping you all in prayer!

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  3. Hello-
    Have been following your journey for quite a while, I have just never commented.
    I think (as if we need more reminders) that this is quite the example of God showing that he has a plan and that surrender is all we can do. I say this completely out of respect, as I am too, on a constant journey to let go of my need to control.
    Wow is what comes to mind-this is just amazing. I will keep you all in my prayers.

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  4. Oh my goodness, Jamie!! They are precious! Can't wait to see what God's plans are for ya'll and these sweet babies!!!

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  5. I knew God was telling me something....."Send Jamie the email....now!"

    :)

    Yeah God!

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  6. How sweet are those twins?!!! So sorry for the painful news yesterday! Praying God's comfort for you guys and for His will for your family -- His plans are always so much better than ours, but I'm thinking two sets of twins would just be awesome!!! You've waited long enough there ought to be FOUR babies at the end of the whole thing!!!

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  7. I've stumbled onto your blog by chance when I found a link on another friend's blog :) I've been CAPTIVATED by your beautiful way of sharing your journey and this post moved me to tears. I am praying for wisdom for you and your husband...may God show you EXACTLY what to do <3
    p.s please follow me and let's be friends :) God bless you!!!!

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  8. I'm so excited for your family. I know you are going through very difficult times now, as are all of us who are waiting, but these are amazing stories that are unfolding. God is doing amazing things and he is taking us along for the ride.

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  9. Praying and expectant to see the Lord move.
    Loving and now following your inspired blog.
    Blessings!

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  10. Jamie, my husband and I are another twin-only Gladney family and I've been praying so hard for your family since I found your blog through the Gladney FBI! God showed me this verse in church this morning and I felt like I should share it with you-I hope it encourages you as much as the Lord encouraged me through His word. Col. 1:17, "He (Jesus) is before all things, and in Him all things hold together." I can't wait to see your story unfold and to see how Jesus has gone before you to prepare your children to come home and how He is holding it all together during this time of unrest and unknowing. Many prayers and blessings to you and yours!

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  11. I know the wait has been tough. Hang in there and your family is in my prayers.

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  12. whoa. I'm praying for you...your way will become clear as mine is becoming clearer everyday. Be strong in your purpose.

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  13. Jamie
    I've been following your journey and my heart aches for you. We have been in the process and have hit a road block at every turn. Some other things have come up which have also added more delays to our plans. I have been so emotionally wrecked over this it's been hard to focus.
    I can totally understand what you are feeling because emotionally our hearts are in the same place.
    It's difficult to wait on the Lord and pray without receiving any answers but I ask myself what else am I to do?
    I'm not sure where you are in Wisconsin, my brother is a physician in Milwaukee. I'd love to chat some time. You are in my prayers, please remember me in yours. Trusting in the Lord and His perfect plan.

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